To be completely honest, getting to the point of owning my negativity pain and fear was an excruciating process.
First I had to accept that it was even there. It had been covered up be sheer willpower mixed with denial, tons of caffeine and nicotine.
Then I dared to feel it, which was its own trip. That didn’t work out well or get me anywhere.
Finally my mind refused to accept that I had the power and the right to do away with it. Just because an emotion is justified doesn’t mean that it’s good for you.
So after years of struggling with this I decided to commit to this practice. I’m giving myself as long as it takes before I end this current purge. But it’s already working! And that’s enough for me.